This week we return in the Torah to “my portion” — B’har/B’chukotai — the portion of my conversion to Judaism and of my bat mitzvah. It’s been 12 years since my conversion and 9 years since my bat mitzvah. Each of those events feels simultaneously like they happened yesterday and a hundred years ago.
May is also the month of my physical birth — 47 years ago, which I find really hard to believe because I remain a total kid at heart. I find great joy in playing with my sons, whether building Legos, playing video games, racing cars, jumping on trampolines, or battling with Nerf guns.
In a video I posted here a few weeks ago, Rabbi Rami Shapiro reminded his audience that whatever we think our age is, we have to add at least 13.8 BILLION years to it, because the pure soul that we were given is a piece of Hashem and has existed at least since The Big Bang.
And, yet, each day, as we say in the morning prayer Yotzer Or, Gd renews Creation . . . including each of us!! Because of this, Rabbi Nachman taught we need to take full advantage of each day for the unique opportunities that it offers. Who knows how we might be different today from yesterday, what new talent or skill or interest we might find within ourselves . . . and maybe that also means that this version of me is here only today, so today, and every day, is Day 1 of an amazingly miraculous adventure!!
I don’t know what number best describes my age, but I know I’m going to keep embracing each day and the opportunities Hashem gives me to live, to laugh, and to love. And I pray you’ll do the same.
Shabbat shalom to all — may you feel young and excited to be alive!! jen