Yesterday morning I wrote:
…whatever life throws at you, for the love of Gd, DANCE!!!
So, G-d, the Universe, karma, the Unity, (whatever name you prefer), decided to “test” my resolve to keep dancing!!
Last night at 9:30, I arrived home to a massive water heater leak and a few hundred square feet of carpet that was so sopping wet that water splashed when I walked across the carpet. Maintenance arrived at 11:00 pm to deal with the water heater. A carpet cleaner arrived at 11:30 pm to start removing the water from the carpet. And now there’s a very large fan blowing air under the carpet and padding, and someone is to install a powerful dehumidifier this morning.
As you might imagine, I didn’t get much sleep, and I’m pretty tired. I need to have a productive day at work, go to the grocery, be a mom, and then figure out how many more days it’ll be until the bookshelves (and all the books, toys, and games that lived on them) can return to that wall between the closet and stairs.
Between being tired and knowing part of my house is in disarray, I’m not feeling especially relaxed. I’m tense. And I could focus on that feeling and worry about the carpet and the disorder. I could let that feeling spiral into a grumpy mood that would result in less than ideal interactions with others, and increased frustration.
I can accept that I cannot fix the house or carpet today, because carpet dries when it dries, and I can let go of the worry about if, when, and how I’m going to get my house back in order. And instead I can focus on NOW — the sun is shining, the birds are singing, and my life is filled with blessings!!!!
I’m tired, but the choice where to focus remains mine . . .
Let’s see if I can pass today’s test!!!